The title of this blog could go in so many directions.
I can trust God as we parent our children. I can trust God in specific matters that relate to Big Brother and Little Sister. I can trust God to help determine Baby J’s future. I can trust Him in every area of our life that pertains to marriage, finances, insecurities, and the list could go on forever.
If there are things that I strive for in my walk with Christ, it is to trust and obey Him more and more and more. If I can just trust that He knows best and offer simple obedience in small and big things, then most other issues will automatically resolve themselves.
A few days ago, trusting God really hit the center of my heart and mind. Especially in the matter of how God answers prayer.
My previous pastor, Pastor Tim Dilena, would always emphasize the importance of praying specifically. This pastoral guidance is one of the many words that hung on to my heart that I continue to follow. If I am praying for someone, I pray very specifically and do the same when I pray for our family as well.
Each night before I go to bed, I pray over several things specifically. First, I spend time thanking God for all He has done (specifically). I pray that all we do and say as a family will glorify Him and be a praise to Him. I pray God will protect our houses, our property, our vehicles, our driveway and garage. I pray there will be no fire, danger or harm that would come near. I pray that only the presence of God would be in our home. If there is any thing apart from the presence of God in our home, that it would be gone in the name of Jesus. I pray for God to post an angel with each child and each adult in the home. I pray there will be no SIDs or death in our home. I pray our children would be safe and protected. I pray that if something is to go wrong, that we would be woken up AND that we would be sensitive to the Holy Spirit. That we wouldn’t just roll over and go back to sleep, but that we would obey when alerted. I end each night with additional thanks and then get my tired self to bed.
Before I go into exactly what happened, I need to give some background. Baby D has acid reflux and Laryngomalacia (breathes very loudly as part of his trachea needs to finish developing. It is supposed to 100% resolve by the time he is one year old). Though I know the general advice given is for a child to sleep on his back, Baby D has never been comfortable doing so. He sleeps at an incline on his stomach. This helps him not spit up and it also helps his breathing quiet considerably. At night time, he sleeps in a pack n play next to me on a wedge and with an AngelCare Monitor.
Both Baby J and Baby D have this type of monitor. It alerts us if they stop moving/breathing for more than 20 seconds. The monitor has really helped me be at more ease. I have had it go off several times for Baby J. Sometimes it is a false alarm (because he can roll around in his bed and move too far from the monitor pad), but there have been times the alarm went off legitimately and the alarm startled him back to breathing (and of course we went running to his room). All that said, throughout the night, I tend to open my eyes and see the green light blinking on Baby D’s monitor and then go back to sleep.
A few days ago, I woke up out of a dead sleep. It was startling how quick I woke up. I instantly felt drawn to “Baby D”. I looked over and saw the light blinking and told myself to calm down. The room was pitch dark and I decided to use the restroom real quick. I couldn’t stop thinking about Baby D and decided to turn on the TV screen (our trusty night light) when I went back to our room.
I was horrified. The wedge that Baby D sleeps on was separated from the edge of the pack and play and he had managed to scoot himself up and his head was hanging over the edge of the wedge. It was such a tight space. I don’t know if he would have been able to lift his own head out or not. It could have also obstructed his breathing. The AngelCare monitor didn’t go off because he was breathing just fine. I instantly lifted him out of the tight space he had gotten himself into and couldn’t stop thanking Jesus. I heard God’s voice very clearly in my heart. He said, “See, Dana, you can trust Me.” The way God said it was so loving and so assuring. He not only answered my prayers specifically, but He gave me even more calm as I sleep in the days ahead. I know that He can/will wake me and that brings rest to my soul.
I haven’t stopped using AngelCare, but I know that He is my TRUE Angel Care. He monitors every part of each of our children and can set off an alarm in our hearts whenever He needs to. All we have to do is respond!
As a follow up “mention”, I did not post the shortened version of this story on facebook. Mainly because I didn’t want to hear comments about safe practices. What happened to Baby D was something that happened despite my best efforts to put him in the safest possible situation while sleeping on his stomach. The point of me sharing this is not to get wrapped up on preventative measures (which I take VERY seriously), but to focus on how God answers prayer specifically and how I can trust Him more.