I was reading 2 Samuel 23 and was jarred by something. In this chapter, David writes his final words and declares that God preserved his destiny…and yet at the end of the chapter, it simply states that Uriah the Hittite was one of his mighty men (strong warriors that fought with David). Yes, that’s right – Bathsheba’s husband. The man David had killed after being made aware Bathsheba was pregnant from their adulterous encounter.
I wonder (or speculate) what David’s heart must have felt throughout his life when he heard that name. Did his heart drop? Did he pause and physically feel the weight of what he did?
The sins and regrets of the past can be brought to our memory instantly – at any moment. A smell, a phrase…really anything can bring you back to your remorse. In the middle of a perfectly wonderful day, a trigger moment can make you feel like you are standing in front of a past error as freshly as the day you committed it.
Yet, in all this, David was able to say in his final words, “Is not my house right with God?”
This tells me David experienced grace and mercy for himself. He did not hear of someone else’s experience and get ‘touched’ by it. No – he personally experienced it.
Let’s visit the day Nathan confronted David with his sin. The trigger moment.
Nathan declares, “You are the man.” (who adulterated, killed, and lied). David responds instantly, “I have sinned.” Nathan spoke the words of God, “Do not be afraid, you will not die.” David’s sin deserved death per the laws observed, but God spoke clearly that he would not die.
When I read this, I get a picture in my mind of God and it so awesome I don’t know how to write it in a way that truly depicts what I see. Though it may not sound as great as I see it, I will try…
Have you ever seen a hyperactive person, who is driven, moving forward, and they just want to finish your sentence? Sometimes you can almost see them bobbing up and down physically because they can’t contain all the energy and thoughts flooding their mind… They look like they are about to run a race but are confined to a chair….They are physically ready to burst at the seams. Or have you seen a boxer about ready to enter the fight? He jumps up and down warming up, ready to blow winning punches!
That is what I see in this scripture. Jesus so ready to forgive our sins if we only repent. He wants to finish the sentence for us, He wants us to just admit we have sinned and have fallen short. He is so full of grace and mercy bursting at the seams that He just wants to run to us. He is jumping up and down in his corner of the ring waiting for the whistle to sound – “Is my daughter repenting? Is she asking for me?” As he hears the whistle of our repentance, He runs as though in a race to enter our hearts before fear and doubt try to invade. “Don’t be afraid, you will not die.” I have taken care of it already. it is all covered. In a final victory punch, He says on the cross, “It is finished!”
David experienced this for himself! His experience with God was so much greater than his sin. The trigger didn’t hold power over him any longer. God entered in and snatched the fear and offered life instead.
He is greater than our sin! Have you experienced this for yourself?