I am sorry it has taken me so long to update my blog. It has been a very full week that we have truly enjoyed – that allowed little time for blogging!
My house is TOTALLY disorganized, but our hearts are warmed!
We live in an old house with small closets. For years we used baby’s room as an alternative “walk-in” closet. Now, we are moving clothing, dressers, and organizing – and we are not near done!
However, little feet have been kissed, big boy’s arms have raised to hug us, and we are OVERWHELMED.
I have decided to call the kids “big boy” (4 year old boy) and “baby” (1 week old baby girl). They both have nicknames from us already and have snuggled right into our home and hearts.
It is amazing to know confidently that God picked out these children to be in our home. Before they arrived, on Monday the 12th, I was very impressed in my heart to begin praying for God to move His hand on behalf of the kids that were to be in our home. Specifically, it was my prayer that if the process needed to be changed around and shifted in order to allow the children to come to our house – that God would do that work. My heart prayed that whatever hurdle might be there – that it would be overcome. Amazingly, this is the day baby was born.
I never told anyone except Jeff and a few personal friends that it was my secret desire to have a baby and then another child that Jeff could play with.
As the children were brought to our home, the case workers talked amongst themselves with every agency acronym in their employee handbook. I had no idea what they were talking about, but picked up on the fact this was an unusual situation. I asked them, “Am I catching that this placement has been unusual in how it came to us?” The case workers expressively told me that this was definitely different than most placements. Baby had been kept in the hospital for an extra day while they looked for placement decisions, and so on and so forth.
Big boy has the cutest speech and loves words of affirmation. “Yook, I did it! I’m a big boy!” (Hence his blog nickname ‘big boy’). The other day, Jeff and big boy put together baby’s crib and big boy got to actually use the allen wrench to put it together. In the middle of using his new tool, he twisted around, hugged Jeff, and said, “You’re my friend.” I caught it on video and wish I could share it with you all, because it was the MOST adorable moment.
Baby looks at us with her warm eyes already and moves her body when she hears Jeff speak. You see, she and Jeff have become sleeping buddies. She only likes to sleep on his chest. She hears him and thinks she is about to enter into blessed sleep. ha ha! When I hold her, she opens her mouth instantly. She knows I am the feeding queen. It is so amazing to see her angelic mouth open in trust that it will be filled…
Even in the groggiest of sleepy moments, I am touched to my core that God allowed these two precious, specific children to come to our home.
Oh how loved we feel by God to be able to love these children. His presence is near and tangible in these moments.
Thank you Jesus.